| Situation going from bad to worse |
[Wednesday
10.13.04
@ 8:13am] |
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Fat Joe- Lean back (remix) |
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I already added a picture of Adam to my ex-boyfriend box.
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| Things are back to normal (sort of) |
[Monday
10.11.04
@ 4:16pm] |
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Usher- Confessions |
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K, after our big fight things are kinda weird . So he shows up at my job on Friday night all sad and shit. So I asked him what’s wrong. He pops up with some we need space shit. At that moment I got fire coming outta my ass I’m like WHAT THE FUCK!!! He’s like well I know your gonna be mad at me but I read your live journal. At that moment I swear I was gonna get up and smack the piss out of him. Even though I told him I dont want him reading mine cause I don’t read his. He ignored the fact that this is personal to me. So I asked him why he thinks we need space , he’s like I though that’s what you want. So now he doesn’t only interpret things the wrong way but he’s putting words in my mouth. I was like whatever if that’s what you want. I stormed off cause I was so mad, and to make matters worse I started to cry. I must have had at least 4 guys wanting to kick his ass right then and there (one of them was this hot guy , that I’m so in love with). But anyways, he disappeared the whole night, didn’t even answer his phone and I’m freaking out thinking something is wrong ( besides the point that he was acting like an ass). Then he calls at like 3 in the morning wanting to talk. So that night I got 2 hours of sleep . The next day he brings me a dozen roses and a bear, saying he’s sorry. So now I guess I really can’t be mad at him. But, still I have a feeling we’re not really going to last.
Anyways , I know your reading this, so from now on you’re just gonna have to deal with what I write in this. And if you don’t like it, then DON’T READ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Don’t know what to do!!! |
[Thursday
10.7.04
@ 4:23pm] |
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Martina McBride- This One's for the girls |
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Adam and I have been bickering at each other for bout 2 weeks. Everything I say he interprets in the wrong way, but yesterday he really pissed me off. I was at work and I was really hungry so I waited til he got off work, to go on break. Anyways, it was cool until he got this call from this girl. Since I ain’t really the jealous type I was like whatever, I swear I must have been sittin there for a while. Finally, since his phone call was more important to him then me; I got pissed and got up and left. Cause that was fucked up, I felt like I was just a piece of shit he set on the back burner. I wasn’t really even the point that he was talking, to who I found out later was his ex-girlfriend. I was pissed cause he didn’t even make an attempt to hang up and spent my break with me. To make a long story short I entered a endless night of “I’m sorrys”, and “ Do you still love me?”. Which pissed me off even more, cause he’s not giving me room to breath, or even vent. I’m thinking of cutting this romance short, before it gets out of hand. Besides, I don’t know what to say bout this ex-girlfriend thing, cause everyone tells me it wrong that hes wit me but still talks to her. But I’m not to worried about that cuz there’s lots of things he wouldn’t like about me if he found out. Well gotta go and be pissed off some more. Later.
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| AWWWWWWWWW |
[Thursday
9.30.04
@ 8:01pm] |
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What ya think??? |
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Ok, Adam and I have been shaky lately, so a couple of days ago he emailed this song to me. He said this is how he feels. I bout cried (ok I did cry), but it was so sweet.
Tim McGraw- My Best Friend
I never had no one that I could count on
I've been that down so many times
I was tired of hurtin' so tired of searchiin'
Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin' I'd never known
And for the first time I didn't feel alone
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
You stand by me you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble when we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
And oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Every time I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
You're my best friend
P.S. I got a PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!(Her name is Roxie)
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| The worst fuckin day ever!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Monday
9.20.04
@ 5:16pm] |
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Jay-Z & Beyonce: Girlfriend |
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And it all started when I broke my mirror. (creepy huh). Anyways, was supposed to be my day off. And I ended up doing more things then when I’m working. As I was going to class, I ran into my mom’s coffee table and broke one of her ornament thingy’s. Had some asshole try to run me off the road. Then when I was going to lab, I got into my car and as soon as I get to school, it starts pouring really bad. So ok, I turn around, go home to get an umbrella. Meanwhile, I can’t see where I’m going and almost get into an accident. I got the umbrella, turn around and go back to school, when I pull up …………….. IT STOPS RAINING!!!! I’m like oh hell no. Then what happens, class ends I go to my car, as soon as I get home , it starts pouring again. I reach over to get my umbrella, and guess what???? I forgot the shit at school. So either way I got drenched. I’m so not happy right now. GTG and see if anything thing else goes wrong today.
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| Back to normal |
[Monday
9.13.04
@ 1:15pm] |
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Dru Hill- I Love You |
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Today is my first day back to school since hurricane Frances hit. That was the worst hurricane that I have every since it sucked. Nothing major happened to our house, expect we didn’t have power for like 2 days. Anyways, yesterday Adam and I had a little getaway and went to St. Augustine the whole day. Oddly enough he has never been there so I served as a tour guide. We had a blast, he really liked it cause he really likes that history and old rocks type of stuff. Next Tuesday is our six month anniversary and I go this gift today, I really hope he likes it. Well gtg to school.
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| 4-day weekend!!!!!! |
[Friday
9.3.04
@ 1:53pm] |
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Hoobastank- Same Direction |
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Cause of hurricane Frances I’m off today, tomorrow, sat., and sun. Hehe. Finally I get a real break. School is closed today and Monday. And McDonalds closed today and tomorrow. Which is stupid cause nothing is going to happen until Saturday night. But oh well cuz its there lost. Ewww, two days ago, Jason this guy I know comes to my job and tells me he called , Tom this guy I was seeing, am I’m like OKAY, why would I care, I mean that’s good he’s still alive but geez its not like I can’t live without him. And, the same shit happened like the next day, my friend Darin comes to me and tells me he saw one of my exes at Wal-Mart. Same thing happened I was okay that’s great….. I wonder why people do that though, is it suppose to brother me??? Or am I suppose to break down and say NO, I DON‘T WANNA HEAR IT!!! OH GOD IT STILL HURTS!!! YOU‘RE BREAKING MY HEART!!! Cuz I’m not. Anyways, I’ve been a little sad cuz I haven’t seen Scott (my mechanic) since like Wednesday, and I probably won’t be able to see him til Tuesday. That’s ….. 5 DAYS!!!! He’s so hott, but not hotter then my baby. Cuz I love Adam with all my heart. I’ve been seeing a lot of each other lately, and you’d think we’d get tired of each other but no. We’re still together, and still strong (actually talking about the future and shit). We brought our plane tickets to Michigan for Christmas. Over $600.00, which means that I’m going to been updating my journal more often cuz I wont’ have any money to go out. Well gtg and watch T.V. for the fristy time in like a week.Peace.
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| Just Chillin |
[Tuesday
8.31.04
@ 6:43pm] |
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Michelle Branch- All you wanted |
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Today was pretty smooth, I worked almost all day, had a physical therapy appointment, and now I’m doing homework and getting really to go watch Adam play hockey. My mechanic guy came in again today. Man he's so fucking hott. And specially when he smiles, I think what I like most about him his smile, and his clothes. Cuz he's kind of a chunky boy, but he knows what looks nice. We smiled at each other for and hour again (hehehe). Anyways, I’m officially starting to get myself out of debit. I put a bunch of shit on my new credit cards, and I’m starting to pay it off before I get out of control. Like 75% of the United States population. Sunday I went to church with Adam, my mom, and Liz. It was cool, I mean what more does a girl what her boyfriend, her best friend, and her mami´. Well peeps I gots to go and study some more, so I can get good grades and begin on my revenge against those freakin seamen. (hehe). Later gators.
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| Fairy Tale or Soap Opera? |
[Saturday
8.28.04
@ 8:23pm] |
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Ok, here goes. C bout three weeks ago b-4 I was going to school I went into McDonalds (my job) on my day off, I think it was a Monday. Anyways I was talking to my mom, and this very good looking guy comes up to me and asked me where he knows me from. At that point I could have said something smart like I “I dunno but you can get to know me now.” But, unfortunately I was good and told him that I didn’t know, he said he knew me from a church group I use to go to. We started talking about things we’ve done since. Bout two days after that, this mechanic looking guy comes through drive-thru in thid really nice GMC truck, I mean he’s got on his blue collar shirt, full of oil, he’s all sweaty and looking damn good. We said hello and everything and I could have sword he’s the same guy, but I didn’t say nothing. Well to cut a long story short, he’s been back everyday since. And what I’ve noticed is that he circles around the restaurant to see where I’m working and goes there. TODAY HOWEVER I finally got the balls to say something, and I asked him is he’s the guy I ran into, and he said no. But OMG I bout choked when he and I where finally talking. I took one look at his eyes and just couldn’t stop starting. He has these green-olive looking eyes. I could tell he’s was nervous too, cuz after our, what seemed like 1 hour eye-to-eye contact he could look at me anymore, and I couldn’t either. I sort of feel guilty cuz I love Adam with all my heart, and even though I know I didn’t really do anything bad (if you don’t count coming close to an organism out staring into someone’s eyes) . But it’s just we are starting to get to the second level , and I feel like I having finish exploring the world yet. Or maybe I’m just being greedy
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| First day of school!!!!! |
[Monday
8.23.04
@ 4:17pm] |
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Alan Jackson- Remember When |
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Since I can’t go to the Navy I’m going back to school .I’m taking 3 classes this semester (the 3 that I got D’s on last year). So far so good, I made up my mine that I’m going to force myself to concentrated, so that way I don’t have to take them again. I’m going to put everything side work, car, and even my boyfriend (which is the reason why I’m taking this again, cuz of my dumb ex boyfriend) . Anyways today I didn’t have to work and I called the Navy office in Jacksonville and asked them about my separation letter. According to them I was out on the 10th, which is good cuz now I don’t have to worry about going to jail. So basically the official day that I told the United States Navy that I can’t go and to kiss my Hispanic non-citizen ass, was on August 10,2004. I still can’t believe that they were so prejudice to give me only certain jobs in the Navy cuz I’m not a citizen. How fucked up is that? Well all I can do is wait til I become a nurse, and when ever I see one of those fuckers, make sure I stick something really big up there ass. Payback is a bitch!!!
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| Eww... this song reminds me of my ex |
[Saturday
8.21.04
@ 11:14pm] |
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Hoobastank-The Reason |
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Man do I have a whole lot of shit to tell.To begin with I can’t go to the Navy. My fucking back condition has worsen, and to top it all off my recruiter was a total dickhead about it. He yelled at me, made me cry , and threaten me. It was really fucked up. Anyways my trip to Peru in June went really well I spent a whole month there, I liked spending time with my family, but I was anxious to get back home to my parents and my baby Adam. Things between us are going really good , we got a lot closer when we went up to Michigan in July . I guess that’s what you get when your stuck in a car with someone for 14 hours each way. I really do hope that we last a long time. (Like forever) Lately I been really busy between work, Adam, getting things ready for school, and home. I can’t wait to settle down and lead a NORMAL life, if there’s such a thing. Chrissi left for college again, bout 2 weeks ago. I miss her already. She and I got really close this summer, which was really cool. GTG today’s me and Adam’s 5 month anniversary AWWWWWW. Peace
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| Confused |
[Friday
4.30.04
@ 9:10pm] |
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Usher:Burn |
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Well i have not written in my journal for a long time. Thats cause of school and work and stuff but ya know. Anyways, lets see what has happened since last time. Well Adam and i are not just "dating" or whatever we were, we are official now, well since march 21st! i'm so happy with him, i really like him alot and believe it or not we are actually saying i love you , to each other. and i wouldn't say it if i didn't mean it. which is why i am very upset with what i did today, because if he finds out then it might be over. but i'll will talk about that later. school still sucks, but good thing is that it is almost over i have 1 more week. YEAH!!! work still sucks i literally what to shoot everyone there. but on the good side my bestest friend Chrissi is coming down, and she is going to work with me, another YEAH!!!!! well, i knew it was coming the time to talk about what happened today. so here goes, this guy at work (name should be kept secret) and i have always been fooling around about hooking up. i mean this has been way back like 6 months ago. today it got a little out of hand, we ended up making out in the walk-in refrigerator at my job. i felt so bad cause all i could think of form then on is how mad Adam would be at me (that is if he ever found out). well anyways i had to get some toys from out in the shed and i didn't know he was behind me, and well to make a long story short we did it again! to this moment i feel dirty and very ashamed of myself.
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| Happy St. Patrick's Day! |
[Wednesday
3.17.04
@ 9:40pm] |
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Frankee F.U.R.B. |
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Well this is the first time that i have written in my journal,for me this is easier then writing it on paper, cause i get lazy.Anyways, my day was pretty boring except when i went to school believe it or not i was looking forward to taking my midterm. Go figure? i think i did well, cause i was copying the girl next to me (if you're reading this, sorry Jessica). i can't wait til tomorrow i get to go to the movies with Adam. Adam is this guy i'm kinda...well were not going out....i don't know i guess we are just hooked up. but yeah, hes really sweet and stuff (big difference from all my other exes). so i'm looking forward to that! tell ya how it goes. bye.
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